It was like that then，the island，thought Cam，once more drawing her fingers through the waves。She had never seen it from out at sea before。It lay like that on the sea，did it，with a dent in the middle and two sharp crags，and the sea swept in there，and spread away for miles and miles on either side of the island。It was very small；shaped something like a leaf stood on end。So we took a little boat，she thought，beginning to tell herself a story of adventure about escaping from a sinking ship。But with the sea streaming through her fingers，a spray of seaweed vanishing behind them，she did not want to tell herself seriously a story；it was the sense of adventure and escape that she wanted，for she was thinking，as the boat sailed on，how her father's anger about the points of the compass，James's obstinacy about the compact，and her own anguish，all had slipped，all had passed，all had streamed away。
What then came next？Where were they going？From her hand，ice cold，held deep in the sea，there spurted up a fountain of joy at the change，at the escape，at the adventure（that she should be alive，that she should be there）。And the drops falling from this sudden and unthinking fountain of joy fell here and there on the dark，the slumbrous shapes in her mind；shapes of a world not realised but turning in their darkness，catching here and there，a spark of light；Greece，Rome，Constantinople。Small as it was，and shaped something like a leaf stood on its end with the gold-sprinkled waters flowing in and about it，it had，she supposed，a place in the universe-even that little island？The old gentlemen in the study she thought could have told her。Sometimes she strayed in from the garden purposely to catch them at it。
There they were（it might be Mr。Carmichael or Mr。Bankes who was sitting with her father）sitting opposite each other in their low arm-chairs。They were crackling in front of them the pages of THE TIMES，when she came in from the garden，all in a muddle，about something some one had said about Christ，or hearing that a mammoth had been dug up in a London street，or wondering what Napoleon was like。Then they took all this with their clean hands（they wore grey-coloured clothes；they smelt of heather）and they brushed the scraps together，turning the paper，crossing their knees，and said something now and then very brief。Just to please herself she would take a book from the shelf and stand there，watching her father write，so equally，so neatly from one side of the page to another，with a little cough now and then，or something said briefly to the other old gentleman opposite。And she thought，standing there with her book open，one could let whatever one thought expand here like a leaf in water；and if it did well here，among the old gentlemen smoking and THE TIMES crackling then it was right。And watching her father as he wrote in his study，she thought（now sitting in the boat）he was not vain，nor a tyrant and did not wish to make you pity him。Indeed，if he saw she was there，reading a book，he would ask her，as gently as any one could，Was there nothing he could give her？
Lest this should be wrong，she looked at him reading the little book with the shiny cover mottled like a plover's egg。No；it was right。Look at him now，she wanted to say aloud to James。（But James had his eye on the sail。）He is a sarcastic brute，James would say。He brings the talk round to himself and his books，James would say。He is intolerably egotistical。Worst of all，he is a tyrant。But look！she said，looking at him。Look at him now。She looked at him reading the little book with his legs curled；the little book whose yellowish pages she knew，without knowing what was written on them。It was small；it was closely printed；on the fly-leaf，she knew，he had written that he had spent fifteen francs on dinner；the wine had been so much；he had given so much to the waiter；all was added up neatly at the bottom of the page。
But what might be written in the book which had rounded its edges off in his pocket，she did not know。What he thought they none of them knew。But he was absorbed in it，so that when he looked up，as he did now for an instant，it was not to see anything；it was to pin down some thought more exactly。That done，his mind flew back again and he plunged into his reading。He read，she thought，as if he were guiding something，or wheedling a large flock of sheep，or pushing his way up and up a single narrow path；and sometimes he went fast and straight，and broke his way through the bramble，and sometimes it seemed a branch struck at him，a bramble blinded him，but he was not going to let himself be beaten by that；on he went，tossing over page after page。And she went on telling herself a story about escaping from a sinking ship，for she was safe，while he sat there；safe，as she felt herself down，and the old gentleman，lowering the paper suddenly，said something very brief over the top of it about the character of Napoleon。
She gazed back over the sea，at the island。But the leaf was losing its sharpness。It was very small；it was very distant。The sea was more important now than the shore。Waves were all round them，tossing and sinking，with a log wallowing down one wave；a gull riding on another。About here，she thought，dabbling her fingers in the water，a ship had sunk，and she murmured，dreamily half asleep，how we perished，each alone。
