When she looked at Tara she could understand, in part, why wars were fought. Rhett was wrong when he said men fought wars for money.No, they fought for swelling acres, softly furrowed by the plow, for pastures green with stubby cropped grass, for lazy yellow rivers and white houses that were coolamid magnolias.These were the only things worth fighting for, the red earth which was theirs and would be their sons',the red earth which would bear cotton for their sons and their sons'sons.
The trampled acres of Tara were all that was left to her, now that Mother and Ashley were gone, now that Gerald was senile from shock and money and darkies and security and position had vanished overnight. As from another world, she remembered a conversation with her father about the land and wondered how she could have been so young, so ignorant, as not to understand what he meant when he said that the land was the one thing in the world worth fighting for.
“For‘tis the only thing in the world that lasts……and to anyone with a drop of Irish blood in them the land they live on is like their mother……'Tis the only thing worth working for, fighting for, dying for.”
Yes, Tara was worth fighting for, and she accepted simply and without question the fight. No one was going to get Tara away from her.No one was going to set her and her people adrift on the charity of relatives.She would hold Tara, if she had to break the back of every person on it.
Chapter 26
Scarlett hab been at Tara two weeks since her return from Atlantawhen the largest blister on her foot began to fester, swelling until it was impossible for her to put on her shoe or do more than hobble about on her heel. Desperation plucked at her when she looked at the angry sore on her toe.Suppose it should gangrene like the soldiers'wounds and she would die, far away from a doctor?Bitter as life was now, she had no desire to leave it.And who would look after Tara if she should die?
She had hoped when she first came home that Gerald's old spirit would revive and he would take command, but in these two weeks that hope had vanished. She knew now that, whether she liked it or not, she had the plantation and all its people on her two inexperienced hands, for Gerald still sat quietly, like a man in a dream, so frighteningly absent from Tara, so gentle.To her pleas for advice he gave as his only answer:“Do what you think best, Daughter.”Or worse still,“Consult with your mother, Puss.”
He would never be any different and now Scarlett realized the truth and accepted it without emotion—that until he died Gerald would always be waiting for Ellen, always listening for her. He was in some dim borderline country where time was standing still and Ellen was always in the next room.The mainspring of his existence was taken away when she died and with it had gone his bounding assurance, his impudence and his restless vitality.Ellen was the audience before which the blustering drama of Gerald O'Hara had been played.Now the curtain had been rung down forever, the footlights dimmed and the audience suddenly vanished, while the stunned old actor remained on his empty stage, waiting for his cues.
That morning the house was still, for everyone except Scarlett, Wade and the three sick girls was in the swamp hunting the sow. Even Gerald had arouseda little and stumped off across the furrowed fields, one hand on Pork's arm and a coil of rope in the other.Suellen and Carreen had cried themselves to sleep, as they did at least twice a day when they thought of Ellen, tears of grief and weakness oozing down their sunken cheeks.Melanie, who had been propped upon pillows for the first time that day, lay covered with a mended sheet between two babies, the downy flaxen head of one cuddled in her arm, the kinky black head of Dilcey's child held as gently in the other.Wade sat at the bottom of the bed, listening to a fairy story.
To Scarlett, the stillness at Tara was unbearable, for it reminded her too sharply of the deathlike stillness of the desolate country through which she had passed that long day on her way home from Atlanta. The cow and the calf had made no sound for hours.There were no birds twittering outside her window and even the noisy family of mockers who had lived among the harshly rustling leaves of the magnolia for generations had no song that day.She had drawn a low chair close to the open window of her bedroom, looking out on the front drive, the lawn and the empty green pasture across the road, and she sat with her skirts well above her knees and her chin resting on her arms on the window sill.There was a bucket of well water on the floor beside her and every now and then she lowered her blistered foot into it, screwing up her face at the stinging sensation.
Fretting, she dug her chin into her arm. Just when she needed her strength most, this toe had to fester.Those fools would never catch the sow.It had taken them a week to capture the pigs, one by one, and now after two weeks the sow was still at liberty.Scarlett knew that if she were just there in the swamp with them, she could tuck up her dress to her knees and take the rope and lasso the sow before you could say Jack Robinson.
But even after the sow was caught—if she were caught?What then, after she and her litter were eaten?Life would go on and so would appetites. Winter was coming and there would be no food, not even the poor remnants of the vegetables from the neighbors'gardens.They must have dried peas and sorghum and meal and rice and—and—oh, so many things.Corn and cotton seed for next spring's planting, and new clothes too.Where was it all to come from and how would she pay for it?
