2018年02月15日 14:45 (星期四),我看到Can的完美答案,回信如下:
Thank you for sharing the music. I believe they must be very nice. But I'm sorry that China can't use YouTube, just like Google, WhatsApp, Facebook, and Instagram.
And thank you for sharing your ideas with me. You think very deeply.
But so far, our communication is very pleasant, because you are very tolerant, as you say. But I think that more of our communication is just talking about ourselves and excluding the other person, that is, we are not looking for the common ground of each other. Or we are looking for it in the statement, but our words are not enough to reflect this. So I think our communication seems not so good, or not what I want.
I don't know if I have to make it clear, I'm not criticizing our mode of getting along, maybe I want too much.
哈哈,看到这些,我不禁笑了,我真是个傻子,狼子野心,昭然若揭呀。难道我当时已经觉得他太客气太疏离太刻意营造他自己的完美形象?还是我感到气愤他居然还没对我动心,言语中没有半点暧昧?他的话的确非常分明地区分他自己地部分和我的部分,他在表述自己时,几乎没有牵涉到我,没有在寻找彼此地共同点和连接点,就好像他只是在满足他自己的表达欲。说白了,我可能感到有些丢脸了,我自我感觉信号已经很明显了,可他还是一副高高在上,出淤泥而不染地感觉,这真让人火大。如果对于他来说,我并不是独一无二的,那么我对于他来说是没有意义的,那么他对于我来说也是没有意义的。如果他对待我只是像对待无数他的其他网友一般,我才不稀得,得罪就得罪了吧,我不在乎。
估计当时我也就想着泄愤了吧,不管他如恶化回复,反正最惨不过是再也不联系。但假如他是在乎的,也许他会紧张,会反思,会有所开化,我的占有欲也许会得到一定程度上的满足呢。