我现在究竟是一个什么样的人？相貌如何？多大年龄？现在是什么时候哪个朝代？这是在梦境中吗？我为什么经常控制不了身体？这些问题困扰在心中，让我焦虑不安。
这难道是已经老掉牙的电视剧小说的穿越桥段，我死了或是被雷劈了什么的，然后身体挂了，灵魂和记忆进入某个时间点，赶巧某个人刚好要死，我借尸还魂用了他的躯壳。
我想抬起手看看自己的身体和肤色，这具大老爷身体压根儿不理我，牵着缰绳步履坚定的向前行进。
一阵无力感，这是困在这具身体里面了，这是部惊悚电影还是我睡魇着了，如果是梦魇的话我听老人说，神志意识是清醒的，是对身体失去控制能力，眼睛也睁不开但能听见和思考。
这时头顶上感觉有个意识进入脑海，梦境是什么，梦难道就是假的吗……我擦，借尸还魂还能操作成套娃模式吗？
我进入这具身体中，然后还有个意识进入我的意识，既不属于这具身体，也不属于我！
天地人三才模式吗？
再难道我是属于进入游戏的那种故事情节吗？我只是个游戏角色，然后现实中有个玩家控制我，因为某个机缘巧合，我这个游戏角色发展出智能人格？
不对啊，我有记忆啊，我不叫大力，我叫何之同，是名小县城人民医院的骨科医生。
在大兴地区塔克县，现在是公元2019年11月，我80年出生已经近四十岁了。
这时那个意识又进入我的脑海，你的记忆就一定是真实的吗？这里就一定不是你吗？
我擦，你谁呀？这是要把我整疯掉吧，现在的情况我已经要崩溃了，又来个不知道是什么人还是神的在这儿又真又假的忽悠我……
扑哧一声，我听见自己笑出了声，但我并没有想笑，是这具身体自己笑的，我心好累，我向前看去，见前面跪了一排大约有六个孩子，大的有十来岁，小的也就五六岁，正趴在地上对着我们磕头，一起喊着请老夫人带着我们走吧。
身体转过头看向老妈，只见老妈的脸色有些黑，陈婶抱着那个叫晓梅的孩子也不知所错的看着老妈。
身体的头转向右边对姐姐压低声音说道，姐我们是要去救援韩将军他们的，这还还没出城门马上就要开私塾了。
老姐瞪了我一眼，从另外一个家佣背上拿下一个发黄的帆布包，走到孩子们跟前，打开布包把里面的窝头分给他们，一边分一边低声说道，我们要去很危险的地方，你们吃了东西就回去找家里的大人，我们不能带着你们。
那群熊孩子，接过窝头大口大口的往嘴里塞着，吃的腮帮子两边鼓出两个小山，有个小一点的噎的直翻白眼，老姐忙叫道李婶婶快拿点水来。
我赶紧从李婶那里接过水过去帮忙，后面不远处人群越来越多。
走的时候嘱咐你，要你回来的时候趁天黑再进城，你却不听，一早老妈收到你的信鸽，说你找到韩将军的踪迹了，让大家带着粮食现在出发，老姐一面接过水，帮那个差点噎死的熊孩子喂水，一边对我说道，话里带着些许责备。
我终于找到点线索，我出场的时候正是这具身体要进入城内，他之前是被老妈派去寻找那个叫韩将军的去向，之所以我知道马车上的东西也是因为这具身体之前的飞鸽传书。
可这一队老的老小的小，还有这么一车米能去干啥呢？当然老姐除外，她刚刚那一波操作，吟诗舞扇中一群人就败倒在地的场景，也是让我大开眼界。
话说老姐对抗那群难民（对不起我没有歧视的意思，只是觉得他们太聪明，老妈带走这个叫晓梅的孩子，紧接着就来了一群孩子）当时我感觉时间变慢了，老姐的声音像从天际中传来，好像自带特效一样，这是难道是镜头特写吗？
要不是拉着车，我早就背起老妈，拽着老姐一溜烟跑开了，这么下去非耽误事不可啊。
而那群熊孩子咽下窝头，手拉着手来到我妈面前，看样子又是要集体跪拜，求老佛爷收留的戏码。
不行，我和老姐交换了一下眼神，我从牵马的老仆人背后拿了他的口粮包袱，老仆忙想拦我，慌不迭的说少爷，少爷您不要再喂下去了，这是您和小姐的口粮，这样下去我们自己就要挨饿了。
我拿下包袱打开看了一眼，居然是白米磨成粉做的细粮馍馍，陈婶背的是老妈的口粮，那里只是窝头，而我和老姐的却是细粮馍馍，我感动的看向老妈。
却见老妈一脸急迫又无奈的看着这群熊孩子。
我拿出一个白馍向那群熊孩子晃了晃，你们看这是什么，熊孩子们没等开口说台词，就见我居然拿着一个白米馍馍，一下子就炸锅了。
也不跪了，呼啦一下就奔过来要吃这顿饕餮大餐。
我掰下一块丢在他们后面，向老姐使了个颜色，老姐捞起缰绳对后面沉声道，快走。
那群熊孩子哄抢着那一小块白馍，你推我搡马上那块白馍就被踩成了黑色的面疙瘩，但还是被一个年纪较大，体型和力气更强的孩子塞进嘴里，就着泥巴嚼都没嚼的咽进肚子。
其余没抢到的孩子又都瞪着我手里余下的白馍，我又掰下一块向后面更远一些的方向丢去。
就这样一共用了三个白馍，我终于把这群熊孩子引开了，还有最后的那个白馍丢的时候，后面的那群难民也加入到熊孩子抢馍的队伍中，有两个孩子被推倒，眼看就要被踩死了。
我忙弯腰捡起一块碎石，打在那块白馍上，让它改变方向，那群人像盯着鸡蛋壳的苍蝇一样，哄的跟着改变了方向，两个熊孩子才幸免于难。
等到三个馍丢完，我已经把人群分成三波，看看老姐他们也远远的走开了，我擦了一把汗纵身跳上一座倒塌了半边的房屋，向人群喊了一声，晃了晃装了些碎木块的包袱，这里还有啊，转身向老妈她们相反的方向跑去。
What exactly is a what kind of person am I now?
Is this already old TV series through the bridge， I'm dead or what was being， then hung up the body， soul and memory into a particular point in time， it someone just to die， I rebirthing used his body.
I want to raise hand look at your body and skin color， it'm body never ignore me， holding the REINS firm step forward along.
A burst of powerlessness， this is trapped in the body， is it a horror movie or I sleep Yan， if it's a nightmare I listen to the old man said， the conscious mind is， is out of control ability to the body， eyes also hard to open but could hear and thinking.
Head feel a consciousness into the mind at this moment， what is a dream， the dream is false...
I enter the body， then there is a consciousness into my consciousness， does not belong to the body， also do not belong to me!
Accommodate to only three patterns?
Do I belong to enter the game again that kind of story?
Not ah， I have memory， I don't call vigorously， with what I called， is a small county people's hospital orthopaedic surgeons.
In daxing district， county， is now in November of 2019， I was born in 80 was nearly forty years old.
The consciousness and to enter into my mind at this moment， your memory must be true?
I wipe， you who ah?
Sloped， I heard I laughed， but I didn't want to laugh， smile is the body and my heart is very tired， I look forward to see about six children kneeling in front of the row， the big ten years old， small five or six years old， are on the ground to kowtow， we cried together， please the old lady with a let's go.
Body turned to look at old mama， I saw mom's face some black， great aunt Chen holding the call XiaoMei child looked at old mama also don't know what wrong.
The body's head turned to the right of sister breathed， and elder sister are we going to rescue their general， it is also not out of the gates open school soon.
Kiddo stared my one eye， from another domestic workers back with a yellow canvas bag， walked over to the children， open the inside of the steamed corn-bread among them， the cloth murmured as he points， we will go to dangerous places， what did you have something went looking for adults in the home， we can't with you.
That group of bear children， took the steamed corn-bread shoveled the mouth， eat two hills on both sides of drum， a little bit of their choked straight kiddo busy cried aunt li come and get some water.
I hurriedly from great aunt li took the water over to help， not far behind the crowd more and more.
Charge you to go to you when it is dark again when I come back to the town， you would not listen to them， early in the morning my mother received your pigeons， say that you find most Korean generals， let everyone with food now， kiddo side took the water， help that bear children feed water almost choked to death， and said to me， some blame words.
I finally found a clue， I when it is this body to enter the city， old mama is before he was sent to find the name is Korea's general whereabouts， the reason I know the things on the carriage is because of the body before flying pigeon pass book.
But it's a group of old practices is small， so a car meters can go to do?
Words kiddo against the group of refugees (I'm sorry I didn't mean to discrimination， just think they are too smart， old mama take the child， named XiaoMei， then to a group of children) at the time， I feel time was slow， kiddo sound like coming from the sky， like with special effects， this is don't is a close-up?
Hadn't pull the car， I have back up the old mama， dragging kiddo running away， so without delay is impossible.
But that group of bear children steamed corn-bread swallowing， holding hands to arrive in front of my mom， it seems that it is bow down to the collective， strives for the galeries lafayette received drama.
No， I exchanged glances and kiddo， I'm from behind a horse old servant took his rations， old servant busy want to stop me， panic struck said master， master you don't feed down again， this is miss you and food， so we ourselves will go hungry.
I added baggage open look， incredibly is ground into a powder refined grains bun， Chen aunts back it's mother's rations， there just steamed corn-bread， and I and kiddo is refined grains bun， I was moved to mom.
But see mom a face of urgency and a bear helplessly looking at the group of children.
I took out a white buns to that group of children waved the bear， what do you see that bear the children didn't speak such as lines， will see I'd take a rice steamed bun， immediately fryer.
Don't kneel， shout once ran to come over to eat the gourmet dinner.
I broke off a piece behind them， and to the kiddo make a color， kiddo took up the REINS to sink a track behind， go quickly.
The small white that group of bear children plunder the buns， you push me removing the piece of white buns was immediately on a black doughball， but still be an older， more size and strength of the child in his mouth， with mud didn't chew chewing swallow into the belly.
The rest of the children didn't get the remaining white buns are staring at my hands， and I broke off a piece to the direction of the further behind.
Is such a common three white buns， I finally got this group of bear children away， and finally lost the white buns， behind the group of refugees are also join to bear children rob buns， with two children is pulled down， on the verge of being dead.
I bent down to pick up a piece of gravel， playing on the piece of white buns， let it change direction， the group of people staring at a fly egg shell， coax followed changed direction， two bear children survived.
Wait until lost three steamed buns， I have divided people into three wave， see kiddo they are far away， I wipe the 1 jumps a collapsed on the half of the house， to the crowd shouted， waved the rotten wood， baggage， there are ah， turned to mom they ran in the opposite direction.
