He hesitated, and then said, "I must get my foot on the ladder, then."Ansell began with, "On which ladder?" but Mrs. Lewin, using the privilege of her ***, exclaimed, "Not another word. If there's a thing I abominate, it is plans. My head goes whirling at once."What she really abominated was questions, and she saw that Ansell was turning serious. To appease him, she put on her clever manner and asked him about Germany. How had it impressed him? Were we so totally unfitted to repel invasion? Was not German scholarship overestimated? He replied discourteously, but he did reply; and if she could have stopped him thinking, her triumph would have been complete.
When they rose to go, Agnes held Ansell's hand for a moment in her own.
"Good-bye," she said. "It was very unconventional of us to come as we did, but I don't think any of us are conventional people."He only replied, "Good-bye." The ladies started off. Rickie lingered behind to whisper, "I would have it so. I would have you begin square together. I can't talk yet--I've loved her for years--can't think what she's done it for. I'm going to write short stories. I shall start this afternoon. She declares there may be something in me."As soon as he had left, Tilliard burst in, white with agitation, and crying, "Did you see my awful faux pas--about the horsewhip?
What shall I do? I must call on Elliot. Or had I better write?""Miss Pembroke will not mind," said Ansell gravely. "She is unconventional." He knelt in an arm-chair and hid his face in the back.
"It was like a bomb," said Tilliard.
"It was meant to be."
"I do feel a fool. What must she think?"
"Never mind, Tilliard. You've not been as big a fool as myself.
At all events, you told her he must be horsewhipped."Tilliard hummed a little tune. He hated anything nasty, and there was nastiness in Ansell. "What did you tell her?" he asked.
"Nothing."
"What do you think of it?"
"I think: Damn those women."
"Ah, yes. One hates one's friends to get engaged. It makes one feel so old: I think that is one of the reasons. The brother just above me has lately married, and my sister was quite sick about it, though the thing was suitable in every way.""Damn THESE women, then," said Ansell, bouncing round in the chair. "Damn these particular women.""They looked and spoke like ladies."
"Exactly. Their diplomacy was ladylike. Their lies were ladylike.
They've caught Elliot in a most ladylike way. I saw it all during the one moment we were natural. Generally we were clattering after the married one, whom--like a fool--I took for a fool. But for one moment we were natural, and during that moment Miss Pembroke told a lie, and made Rickie believe it was the truth.""What did she say?"
"She said `we see' instead of 'I see.'"
Tilliard burst into laughter. This jaundiced young philosopher, with his kinky view of life, was too much for him.
"She said 'we see,'" repeated Ansell, "instead of 'I see,' and she made him believe that it was the truth. She caught him and makes him believe that he caught her. She came to see me and makes him think that it is his idea. That is what I mean when Isay that she is a lady."
"You are too subtle for me. My dull eyes could only see two happy people.""I never said they weren't happy."
"Then, my dear Ansell, why are you so cut up? It's beastly when a friend marries,--and I grant he's rather young,--but I should say it's the best thing for him. A decent woman--and you have proved not one thing against her--a decent woman will keep him up to the mark and stop him getting slack. She'll make him responsible and manly, for much as I like Rickie, I always find him a little effeminate. And, really,"--his voice grew sharper, for he was irritated by Ansell's conceit, "and, really, you talk as if you were mixed up in the affair. They pay a civil visit to your rooms, and you see nothing but dark plots and challenges to war.""War!" cried Ansell, crashing his fists together. "It's war, then!""Oh, what a lot of tommy-rot," said Tilliard. "Can't a man and woman get engaged? My dear boy--excuse me talking like this--what on earth is it to do with us?""We're his friends, and I hope we always shall be, but we shan't keep his friendship by fighting. We're bound to fall into the background. Wife first, friends some way after. You may resent the order, but it is ordained by nature.""The point is, not what's ordained by nature or any other fool, but what's right.""You are hopelessly unpractical," said Tilliard, turning away.
"And let me remind you that you've already given away your case by acknowledging that they're happy.""She is happy because she has conquered; he is happy because he has at last hung all the world's beauty on to a single peg. He was always trying to do it. He used to call the peg humanity.
Will either of these happinesses last? His can't. Hers only for a time. I fight this woman not only because she fights me, but because I foresee the most appalling catastrophe. She wants Rickie, partly to replace another man whom she lost two years ago, partly to make something out of him. He is to write. In time she will get sick of this. He won't get famous. She will only see how thin he is and how lame. She will long for a jollier husband, and I don't blame her. And, having made him thoroughly miserable and degraded, she will bolt--if she can do it like a lady."Such were the opinions of Stewart Ansell.
