Two more weeks went by; everything in its accustomed order.
Sipiagin fixed everyone's daily occupation, if not like a minister, at any rate like the director of a department, and was, as usual, haughty, humane, and somewhat fastidious.Kolia continued taking lessons; Anna Zaharovna, still full of spite, worried about him constantly; visitors came and went, talked, played at cards, and did not seem bored.Valentina Mihailovna continued amusing herself with Nejdanov, although her customary affability had become mixed with a certain amount of good-natured sarca**.Nejdanov had become very intimate with Mariana, and discovered that her temper was even enough and that one could discuss most things with her without hitting against any violent opposition.He had been to the school with her once or twice, but with the first visit had become convinced that he could do nothing there.It was under the entire control of the deacon, with Sipiagin's full consent.The good father did not teach grammar badly, although his method was rather old-fashioned, but at examinations he would put the most absurd questions.For instance, he once asked Garacy how he would explain the expression, "The waters are dark under the firmament," to which Garacy had to answer, by the deacon's own order, "It cannot be explained." However, the school was soon closed for the summer, not to be opened again until the autumn.
Bearing in mind the suggestion of Paklin and others, Nejdanov did all he could to come in contact with the peasants, but soon found that he was only learning to understand them, in so far as he could make any observation and doing no propaganda whatever!
Nejdanov had lived in a town all his life and, consequently, between him and the country people there existed a gulf that could not be crossed.He once happened to exchange a few words with the drunken Kirill, and even with Mendely the Sulky, hut besides abuse about things in general he got nothing out of them.
Another peasant, called Fituvy, completely nonplussed him.This peasant had an unusually energetic countenance, almost like some brigand."Well, this one seems hopeful at any rate," Nejdanov thought.But it turned out that Fituvy was a miserable wretch, from whom the mir had taken away his land, because he, a strong healthy man, WOULD NOT work."I can't," he sobbed out, with deep inward groans, "I can't work! Kill me or I'll lay hands on myself!" And he ended by begging alms in the streets! With a face out of a canvas of Rinaldo Rinaldini!
As for the factory men, Nejdanov could not get hold of them at all;these fellows were either too sharp or too gloomy.He wrote a long letter to his friend Silin about the whole thing, in which he bitterly regretted his incapacity, putting it down to the vile education he had received and to his hopelessly aesthetic nature! He suddenly came to the conclusion that his vocation in the field of propaganda lay not in speaking, but in writing.But all the pamphlets he planned did not work out somehow.Whatever he attempted to put down on paper, according to him, was too drawn out, artificial in tone and style, and once or twice--oh horror!
he actually found himself wandering off into verse, or on a sceptical, personal effusion.He even decided to speak about this difficulty to Mariana, a very sure sign of confidence and intimacy! He was again surprised to find her sympathetic, not towards his literary attempts, certainly, but to the moral weakness he was suffering from, a weakness with which she, too, was somewhat familiar.Mariana's contempt for aestheticism was no less strong than his, but for all that the main reason why she did not accept Markelov was because there was not the slightest trace of the aesthetic in his nature!
She did not for a moment admit this to herself.It is often the case that what is strongest in us remains only a half-suspected secret.
Thus the days went by slowly, with little variety, but with sufficient interest.
A curious change was taking place in Nejdanov.He felt dissatisfied with himself, that is, with his inactivity, and his words had a constant ring of bitter self-reproach.But in the innermost depths of his being there lurked a sense of happiness very soothing to his soul.Was it a result of the peaceful country life, the summer, the fresh air, dainty food, beautiful home, or was it due to the fact that for the first time in his life he was tasting the sweetness of contact with a woman's soul?
It would he difficult to say.But he felt happy, although he complained, and quite sincerely, to his friend Silin.
The mood, however, was abruptly destroyed in a single day.
On the morning of this day Nejdanov received a letter from Vassily Nikolaevitch, instructing him, together with Markelov, to lose no time in coming to an understanding with Solomin and a certain merchant Golushkin, an Old Believer, living at S.This letter upset Nejdanov very much; it contained a note of reproach at his inactivity.The bitterness which had shown itself only in his words now rose with full force from the depths of his soul.
